Private Thoughts Made Public

It’s time to come clean. I’ve been thinking about this for a while now, should I tell, should I keep schtum, will people think less of me if I confess, will they think more of me if I confess, and so on and so forth ad infinitum. I’ve decided to do it. I can’t take the pain and the guilt any more. It’s just tearing me apart and I know I am a lesser human being for keeping this a secret. And what better way to blab about a secret than on the internet. I’m nearly ready to do it, I just need to psych myself up a little bit more. I fear I may alienate some readers when they find out what I have to say, but that’s a price I’m prepared to pay.
Ok. Here goes.
Deep breath.
I cheat on my weblog. There. I’ve said it. It’s out in the open now, floating around the ether and no longer weighing down my consciousness like a big lump of granite in my brain.
I feel better now. I can elaborate a bit more. You see, this blog is not all it seems. Each entry has a “posted on” date…….. but the dates are all lies!! Almost nothing is written when the blog says it’s written! Wow, this feels good, unburdening myself like this. I get the urge to write at the weirdest times of the day, usually when I should be fast asleep. I get ideas when I’m at work, and I mull them over in my head while driving home. But the last thing I want to do when I get home after spending all day staring at a computer screen is to stare at another one, so I go for a walk or a bike ride or raid the kitchen or whatever……. and by the time I get round to sitting here and actually writing out my words of wisdom, it’s gone midnight. Sometimes it’s even gone the next midnight.
I’ve been known to sit here and type out three or four entries in one go, and change the dates on them so they look like they’re posted on separate days. I often change the time of a posting by an hour or two to “even out” the entries, and why I do it I don’t even know.
I hope you can still love me despite the fact that I’m lying to you on an almost daily basis. Now, was this post written today, tomorrow or last week? Only I know, and to be honest, only I care.